My life is turning upside down. I’m on the razor’s edge of exhilarated and scared to death. And I freakin’ love it. Why would I love to live on the razor’s edge? Because …
We are here to feel.
Ten years ago I stopped feeling in the name of security and comfort. Once I woke up from the numbness, I swore I’d never be okay with that again.
I made a promise to myself. Numb will not be my way of being even when it feels like the safest way to be.
I insist on feeling no matter what and will not settle for any situation that requires me to hold myself in or shut down.
Being conscious requires feeling. It requires connection to and awareness of self. When I’m numb, I’m lost.
Can you feel it?
What brings me that feeling of aliveness is transformation. Change.
And I’m in the midst of it now.
Six weeks ago, I moved from Los Angeles to Colorado.
In just a few days, my online home will be moved as well. The Intrepid Mompreneur blog will transform into a new blog … Life, Business & The Pursuit of Truth.
Here’s a picture of the IM blog in its current state as I write this so when you are reading this post a few weeks from now, you’ll have a point of comparison.
The nature of my relationship with Dave is changing.
My business is transforming.
Everything. Is. Changing.
Friday night at the mastermind Dave and I were leading, I had a session with Tim Kelley, one of my coaches. (If you get a chance to work with Tim, take it – his process is amazing.)
Afterward, I felt this tingling aliveness (and also quite a bit of fear) as I saw that within 6 months every single thing in my life could be 180 degrees different.
I want to talk about all of it here, publicly, for all of you to read and see.
But before I do, Dave reminds me to examine that desire. Is it from a place of truth or conditioning? What is the motivation behind it?
Do you share all your stuff publicly as it’s happening? Or do you wait until it’s complete? If you do, do you know what your motivation is? Does it matter?
I’d love to hear your thoughts.