I wish I could write for days and fill you in on all that has happened since I started the Course In Miracles, dove into my fear of running out of money and got super focused on my lawyer business, but I only have a few minutes.
Let me just say this, it’s been quite illuminating and I cannot encourage you enough to totally surrender to whatever it is that you fear the most.
Here is what’s happened for me since I did:
I have found a licensing partner for Money Map, LIFT and Eyes Wide Open and we are finalizing a 3-month agreement to try each other out before we make a lifetime commitment. The agreement process is going really well and for the first time ever I am not holding anything back and giving everything I possibly can. These are concepts I’ve long known and even coached others to do, but found very difficult to apply to myself. Doing my own work on myself is such a blessing.
The one challenge I am running into is that all the sudden there are two other potential partners very interested and now I am feeling a bit torn, but I will approach it with the gal I am moving forward with openly and directly so there is nothing hidden and keep you posted on the outcomes as well.
In the meantime, my focus on the lawyer program has paid off. Because I made a number of decisions that have allowed me to seriously decrease my expenses (all part of the dive into my own money shadow), I was able to offer my program more affordably and accessibly than I ever have before. That means we are welcoming 15 new Personal Family Lawyers and Creative Business Lawyers this fall.
And, in the midst of all of it, after nearly two years off television (I swore off doing it anymore until I could do transformational TV back in November of 2009 and then moved to CO to make it easy for me to uphold that promise), I’ve gotten two calls for programs that are really exciting and definitely feel as if they could meet the transformational requirement.
The biggest challenge is that I can feel the danger of getting sucked back into my workaholic ways because it’s all so stimulating. Fortunately, Craig is vigilantly monitoring my Vata (an Ayurvedic dosha that I apparently have too much of and gets aggravated when I get too stimulated) and helping me stay grounded, focused and keep my heart open in the process. I am sure we will end up getting in a fight about that one of these days when my ego forgets what’s most important to me, but for now I am keeping the resistance at bay and reminding myself that relationship with self, family, source and earth is the key to my long-term happiness.
I spent the day on Sunday harvesting carrots, beets, tomatoes, Cauliflower and potatoes out of the garden with Noah and I cannot even tell you the joy I felt digging food up out of the ground. Talk about abundance! Who can be worried about money when pulling pounds of food out of the land?
And to think it used to be my biggest fear in the world to “run out of money” and have to move to the farm. I guess it’s true what I have heard in the past that often that which we fear the most is the path to what we really want.
So I just want to really encourage you to really dive into whatever it is that scares you the most right now. Look at how your resistance to what is may be keeping you from the joy you know is rightly yours.
If you fear running out of money, try to do it and see what happens. If you fear being alone, do it for an extended period, voluntarily. If you fear ridicule and criticism, do the craziest, silliest, most off the wall thing you can imagine as publicly as possible (kinda like getting married at Burning Man!) 🙂
Risk it all and you’ll probably find out you really have nothing to lose.
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