Today was the culmination of a long year of transformation.
The deconstruction of Alexis began in late 2009. After a profound shamanic journey I fell into the gap of awareness that starkly showed me I was not how I wanted to be in the world.
I was ego, money and power-driven.
I was more concerned about who liked me and who didn’t than I was about living my own truth. And while I was financially very successful, I was not really enjoying my life.
My team was fraught with conflict. I felt like I could not let go or it would all fall apart. And I couldn’t see a light at the end of the tunnel.
So I began the process of burning it all down.
I began to work with Tim Kelley to find a re-connection to my reason for being here on the planet.
I let go of my entire team in one business.
I broke up with my long-time boyfriend, who was also my business partner in another business.
And I deconstructed.
I went to Eden, a sacred land where I am hosting an event for evolutionary entrepreneurs this May, the Bahamas and Peru. I took my kids out of school a lot to travel with me. And, I got nailed by the truancy police.
During this time, I nearly killed off the program I created that trains lawyers to be a new kind of lawyer. I cut away everything that didn’t serve, lost a lot of members in the process and discovered who I really wanted to do business with as I went forward.
I got really clear that I would never be in business with someone again just because they were paying me or because I thought I needed them. I would only do business with people I enjoy being around, who I know, like and trust.
I learned a lot about people during this whole process. I saw some truths that were hard to see – about myself and others.
I almost sold the business, then I almost merged it with another business. But each time, I couldn’t do it because I did not have confidence that the work would survive if I let it go that much.
I’ve invested the last 8 years of my life in creating this work, developing the systems, and streamlining them so lawyers would not have to reinvent the wheel to make a difference for their clients. I couldn’t let them go completely.
I had to find a way to deliver the systems and materials to lawyers in a way that was both sustainable and profitable.
Sustainable in this case means that I am still involved in the business (because there is no one who coaches lawyers to build their businesses like I do), but I have a team and systems in place that can handle the marketing, fulfillment and operations without me.
It took me a year, but I finally feel as if that team and those systems are now in place and today we re-opened our Personal Family Lawyer and Creative Business Lawyer programs for the first time in over a year.
The response has been phenomenal. Lawyers are joining us, I am passionate about the business again, and this time I know how to do it without losing myself to it.
I can be who I really am and still serve lawyers, it’s a glorious day!
This is integration.
I made a video about that and the new Goddess circle that welcomed me in today. Watch it: